Words cannot explain...

My sweet mother left her earthly body to be with our Lord on Sunday. She had battled cancer for a year and a half. Cancer sucks. Cancer is a bitch. (Excuse my french, but this is how strongly I feel) She fought a valiant fight. I'm so damn proud of her. Plain and simple. I will not let cancer rob me of the wonderful memories she created for me. There is no way that I could possibly express in words what a wonderful, dream mother she was. She was my best friend. Someone who loved me more than life itself. It's hard to describe what it feels like to lose someone that is that special. It is heartbreaking, breathtaking, and makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry.  However, she is now healed and healthy in Heaven! It's selfish for me to want her here with me. I do, and I'm selfish in that sense. 

Here's the thing though...I still have JOY! Joy that Christians can have knowing I will see her again, joy in knowing she is in such a wonderful place our minds cannot even comprehend. 

I will miss her terribly. I don't even know how terribly I will miss her yet. But I do know there will be times when my heart will literally ache to see her again. But, I will. I will see her again. There will be NO more pain, hurting, heartache, or worry. God is GOOD, He is merciful, and FULL of grace.

So to my mother, I want to say, You won!!! You won your battle. You are with our Lord. We know how this story ends...GOD wins! The evil of this world will be no match. You taught me and Derek well. I'm proud you were and are my mom. As I've always told you, I wouldn't trade you for the world. 

I Love You 

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You will be in my heart always. 

Love, your "baby girl"